Monday, January 23, 2006

mind boggling, heart rendering


the multitude of events uncovered last weekend made me think.

maybe the puan sri(s) and datin(s) were right. maybe there's no such thing as true love. maybe my previous relationships with non-malays, non-muslim really dulled my senses and blurred my sight. made me blind to the fact of the matter; there's no such thing as fate, soulmates or true love for the malays. in their world, fate, soulmates and true love does exist but not in ours. in our world, the code of conduct is marry the woman of your choice, 1, 2, 3 or 4. titik!

such romantic i was! what to do, my grandparents conned me into believing that there are soulmates. they were so lovey dovey til-death-do-us-part. when one is not in their best state, the other would sense it. i guess back then maybe, everything was simpler, the social values and belief system were different then.

henceforward, i concluded - relationship, after the romance is over, is about making best with whom you are with.

20 comments:

Shak said...

Who's to say which is right; your grandparents, or the puan sri(s) and datin(s)?
I don't think any human/mortal is in a position to make concrete statements on whether or not things like “soulmates” or “fate” are “true”.
I think it is best to focus on your wise conclusion, rather than distract yourself with the imaginary!

Regards,
Daniel Shakhmundes

Erra said...

slovo

yup! i'll stop dreaming and start living in reality. :o)

Erra said...

*selepas ini saya perlu menulis dalam bahasa yang tidak difahami umum. ni dah ada orang negara itu baca ni, mati kalau mark baca. habis terbongkar rahsia rupa2nya budak ni dreamer dan naive. sia2 selama ni berdiskusi ilmiah secara serius.*

izan

i'm saddened to hear....

mummy-o said...

like slovo, who's to say exactly eh wegra.

But i do agree with your last line definitely.

Erra said...

mummy-o

kata laa tak wujood. don't give me false hope!

i agree with my conclusion as well.

Erra said...

izan

i know you'll drop by in a bit. :op

found this in the comments on oreos blog "truly malaysia"

"And no matter how in love you are with your wife/gf - there are always other women who will offer themselves openly to you especially when you are walking with your pregnant wife.
And there are men who offer women, man, rent boys, mak nyah whatever... "

errr ... hmmmm ...

*it's not Russian KGB after all*

Erra said...

izan

i'm truly disappointed with my senior at primary school itu and my neighbour itu.... *sigh*

anisism said...

sungguhkah begitu?

Cik Puan Muda Stress said...

aiyah
i'm in love with the same person since 15 years ago and we were 11 then. people say we'll outgrow it, but as it turns out, we grew together. life's not always peachy, and at the risk of sounding super corny, i'm more in love everyday. if thats even possible. then how? how do explain this infatuation of ours?

the:Dreamer said...

Non-malays and non-muslims... you're a girl after my own heart, wegra..
Live in rrrealityyy?
I cannot be the:Realler!
lol
As for your last line, I came to the same conclusion recently...

Erra said...

hey! you guys seriously think i believe what i wrote?! apart from the last line?! i'm just playing OK! :op

Erra said...

i'm a dreamer, i will always be...

Erra said...

Cik Puan Muda Stress

I also had that connection with my ex. Even now, when I'm down tetiba he'll call. Tapi yang bernama Islam nih macam mana daa?

Izan said...

maryam,

I can't express my disappointment.. Thank you for being my partner in our KGB mission..

cik puan muda, i am happy that u have that kind of everlasting love.. but believe me.. sometimes things happen for no reason. things that you love can be taken away without no reason.. no mistake on your part.. no early warning.. coz there are people out there who just think all property is public property.. and they really don't have empathy feelings and are outmost selfish..

*sigh*..

zuhri said...

maryam, u know my thots on this subject, so maleh nak citer panjang-panjang. but the one i'm interested to ask is who is in that picture sitting on the wall?

Erra said...

that on the wall sir is my brother, i'm hiding behind the wall, if you see that tiny head.

zuhri said...

the piture is so tiny la, kat mana tu? that wall?

Erra said...

enche zuhri

the picture was taken in manchester by a stranger. we've given detailed instruction on how we want the picture taken. he didn't listen, so kene crop the bit we wanted and resolution crappy.

zuhri said...

yeah, i remember when i asked a stranger to take my photo besides the leaning tower of pisa (with the famous pose of like i'm trying to hold the tower from falling down). gave him specific instruction but eventually it ended as if the tower is crashing down on me with my bottom half missing. *sigh* those backpacking days...and no digital camera.

Erra said...

enche zuhri

dah beli camera???

my brother yesterday rang to tell, he bought his AF 50mm f/1.8 lens.

jeles! jeles! maybe i should settle for D50, i can buy that now and still have enough to berfoya2.